I feel a certain ANGER
An anger regarding the society way of living and my conscious way of living.
I have a dignity and respect for myself which is more important for me
Society rules never confirm with me.
Such average mind people never understand society way of treating an individual as some commodity to be used.
One important aspect of one’s individual life and society is MARRIAGE.
THE QUESTION OF MARRIAGE BUGS ME
Society allows for a couple to get married for a lifetime.
And lifetimes means you are stuck.
It’s an arrangement for avoiding insecurities of life
The fear of being alone
The fear of being lost
The fear of being old
They go on living forever hating and killing each other.
Love is lost
And a person never learns to be alone and be happy.
Conscious living allows two couples living together as much they wish to.
It requires love to flow naturally and have mutual trust and respect for each other.
They share some moments together.
They grow out of it and when they see they have to move on…
They decide to move on.
It’s like living in the moment.
Such way of living happens between two conscious people who have respect for each other
It’s more of an individual choice
So don’t regard my statement as compulsion but a choice IF YOU CAN AFFORD.
It is happening in developed countries where person are financially independent free from society obligation.
CHOICE IS YOURS ONLY IF YOU CAN AFFORD
Please answer if you are intelligent enough….
You have a close friend
Your best friend who has no ill will for you
He/she takes care of you
He/she is intelligent, happy, wise
He/she has best interest of you becoz he loves you and understands you completely
He/she cannot hurt you
And you also trust him/her completely and no chance of doubt you have on him.
One day you were sitting among a group of friends.
Your best friend comes and looks at you
You welcome him/her
You introduce him/her to your friends
But what happens next is unbelievable
He/she shakes hand with you and smiled looking into your eyes.
And then comes the turning point
He/she punches you
He/she starts beating you black and blue out of nowhere to the point of bleeding.
The beating goes for five minutes
And it ends with you lying on the floor
You stand up and shakes hand with your friend.
Smiling at him you thanks him for a great lesson he taught him/her today.
THE QUESTION IS…
WHAT WAS THE LESSON HE/SHE LEARNT?
Please answer if you are intelligent enough….
What I have gone through is worth telling
But that’s not important
Because I have altered my way of perceiving and thinking
Though not much thinking is involved
But a real change of perception
In how I see the world and my life
That change solely depends on your understanding
Why depression becomes painful?
Only when you don’t accept your shortcoming
Once you accept it
You reduce yourself to almost nothing
You feel unimportant, worthless May be
I have tried everything
And efforts I have put in
Has been quite helpful.
I ACT now…
That helped me much
I remember I was depressed so much
I was aware I can’t control my mind
I thought by thinking more and more
I will find my solution…
I was just lying on couch…
I cried a lot….
I was not looking for sympathy or any kind of help
I wanted a permanent solution
Because I was aware it was an ingrained habit
Which became automatic.
Only thing helped then was to
I started by washing dishes
Such a simple act but still satisfaction I felt was immense
It helped me to overcome of my situation
Such ingrained habits need to be destroyed
Because the effort you put in making yourself miserable
Is equal to the effort you put in making yourself happy
I have become more aware now
Now it happens effortlessly
I see it as a phase and something more than that
I have become sober
I enjoy myself now
“Because I see life and death together now in every moment”
Which is hard to accept.
A bitter truth may be
Nothing last forever and you still live…
Some person would find it hard to grasp making no sense
But those who understand
Then you know what I am talking about
Have a nice days ahead
Don’t hope this way or that way
For or against
Drop all hope
Remain to this moment
In the moment with the moment
For the moment
There is no other moment at this
And what so ever is going to happen
Will happen out of this moment
So why worry?
If this moment is beautiful
How can the next moment be ugly
From where will it come
It grows, it will be more beautiful – has to be
There is no need to think about it.
This is a very powerful mantra
If you repeat it not by words but by ACT
Then you will surely be surprised by its power
Make it a feeling
That I must ACT NOW
By using this belief has made me filled with energy
I started doing thing I like to do
But how far I was going with this belief….
I felt a sudden surge to Quit my job
I was so happy that I felt like
“Who need a job?”
It’s a hoax implanted in mind of average person civilized by our society
But I controlled my urge
And refrained from taking action
I felt like being tamed, moulded to fit.
I have everything I need
A bike, good body, a house, my work
And a beautiful girlfriend
Now continuing a job is meant only to feed our
I sit quite
Meditate a little
And I am free again
And a sudden desire to express, create
Then my higher intelligence says what a waste of eight hours for some money.
I ACTed with patience and continued with what I was doing.